I’m on vacation with Kim, Ruby & Brooke, and I’m happy to say I’ve not been on the internet much at all!
But the steps are still helping me . . . and I figured I’d post an observation or two while they’re fresh. I’ve noticed that the steps are really habits, specifically, they’re habits that facilitate progressive humility, trust in God, and general improvement of character. Just look through the steps, and it’s not hard to realize that these are not things that someone just does, never to repeat, normal ebbs and flows notwithstanding. If you do them even once sincerely, they give you benefits that are hard to walk away from. That seems only fair play for AA’s to fight fire with fire. The Big Book says something to the effect of alcohol abuse being only the symptom: it is merely the vehicle that alcoholics use to run away from the pressures of life. The steps are the solution because they teach a person how to successfully deal with life: by humbly taking our place with God, taking advantage of his many benefits. “Taste and see that the Lord is good.” Similar to alcohol, one experience of God can lead to another.
It’s hard for me to say enough how much God is ready and willing to recreate a willing human being (even one that is extremely screwed up) into someone akin to Jesus. The issue isn’t God’s power or willingness on this point, it’s ours, which the original AA’s were desperate and fortunate enough to discover.
As for my current step ‘location’, I have made some of my amends of step 9, and still have work to do. In fact, I’ve got my biggest ‘amends’ yet to schedule once vacation is over. I pray it goes well. And I find myself doing steps 10, 11 and 12 as well already, though without any prompting.